Thursday, July 12

So Many Ideas... But What???

Yeah, yeah, yeah!  I have TONS of projects in mind.  LOTS!  But the ratio of those projects to the ones that I have done has a big difference.  And the number of projects in mind has the bigger number.  I have all the tools and supplies I need.  All I need is to just freaking start!    I used to work a lot before we moved to the States.  And yet, I still found time to do my crafts.  Now that we have moved, and I'm what you will appropriately call a "home maker," it seems I'm not creating much more.  I should be able to do more pages, cards and projects.  And it's frustrating!  Arg!  But you have to admit it, making one project takes a lot of time.  And when I'm in the process of doing one, I feel guilty because that's what all I do in one whole day.  I feel guilty that my husband is out there working his butt off, and I'm at home just scrapbooking or crafting.  But it's not JUST scrapbooking, right?  If it's not just scrapbooking, then what is it to me?  Scrapbooking is one of my many ways of expressing myself.  It relaxes me.  It preserves memories.  Many years down the road, when my kids and grandchildren see those pages, I want them to be glad that they're able to see those expressions.  I don't want to be just a mother or a grandmother who just kept the house clean and cooked meals everyday.  I want to be a mother/grandmother who is creative.  I want to leave a family legacy with those pages and other works of art.  Something for my kids and grandkids to pass on to their own kids and grandkids, and so on.

Let me start working on something.....

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